I love the long ago disciples of Jesus. They spent a lot of time clueless and terrified.
And yet those bunglers are the best kind of teachers because in our lived solidarity with their ineptitude there is such hope.
Easter and Eastertide are such a wallop of emotional power. There is such despair and such hope and such desperate need to find something that makes sense that might be future-shaping and given the body-wriinging of crucifixion and resurrection and road walking, Jesus is so patient! When encountering the lot of them after his resurection, the first thing he says to them is “Peace”.
It seems he knows that while terror bound it’s near impossible to allow anything in.
I’m feeling such gratitude for the power of a Holy heart that knew that what is needed is a beat or two of peace. What he taught those disciples after he rustled up something to eat is that when we allow ourselves to be open to peace and to hope and to the good of unclenching, there is room for breath; deep and grounding and freeing breath.
I’m feeling a deep sort of compassion for the clench of the world. We all want, we all need, we all ache for peace and all along?
That peace is. One breath at a time.